A Love Lost...

The past three weeks have been both exciting and painful. Allow me to tell you why...

It all began with a drink at a bar; a sideways glance and a slip of paper. Little did I know that this encounter would change my life forever. Etched into my mind, his image would remain until the end of time.

I called him later that week, wanting to know more about this mystery man. A Traveler, he told me, someone who had discovered the value of his good looks. We talked, learning about each other, and slowly bridging the distance between us. He gave me a glimpse into the world of Modeling, I gave him a glimpse of into the domain of Science.

Over the course of the evening, we shared ourselves on many levels, but alas we were forced to part until our next meeting. There would only be another of these rendez-vous before the eve of Valentine's Day.

He picked me up that evening, and drove us to a restaurant off the island: Nuances. As we shared a bottle of red wine, he told me of the coming change in his life. He would soon be leaving for Italia to work for a new agency. And though such news was thrilling, it would be the fork in our newly joined paths. We would be left with mere days before his departure for a new country, a new world.

As the countdown continued, we made the best of our remaining time together. When the final day arrived, I walked over to his flat, and there we shared an hour I will never forget. Passion and Fire, these words cannot convey the emotional dam that burst that fateful afternoon. Tears, a final embrace, then nothing.

What I retain is a memory, a dream that will never end. And no matter how far away he is, I know that I have at last had the opportunity to know true Love. If you've ever felt that you've known someone for a lifetime after only spending a small amount of time with them, then you know what I mean.

I believe that our paths were meant to divide, that Fate had a reason for taking Him away from Me. He is making his mark on the world, I have yet to find my place. Perhaps one day, he'll return...

"Seems like our love is on a road to no-where fast
All my life I thought a love like this would last
But every road can hide a corner
We can't see

I had a vision that I woke up by your side
I felt you breathing and our souls were intertwined
But who controls love's destiny
Not me

We had it all
Right in our hands
We had the space to fly
And still a place to land

So I'm calling out
I'm calling out to the only one
Who can save us from what we've done
Don't leave me hanging on

I'm reaching out and praying you'll come back again
It's just darkness I'm living in
And you're the only place my heart has ever been.

Maybe I'm young and in the ways of love naive
Maybe I'm desperate for a reason to believe
There wasn't any way that I thought that
We would fall

I've seen perfection in a rainbow in the sky
I've seen a child make the coldest grown man cry
But loving you I thought was greater
Than them all

We had it all
Just you and me
Now there's a doorway to my heart without a key

So I'm calling out
I'm calling out to the only one
Who can save us from what we've done
Don't leave me hanging on

I'm reaching out and praying you'll come back again
It's just darkness I'm living in
And you're the only place my heart has ever been

Wherever you are right now
Come back and show me how you feel
Because I'm lost without you here

Calling out
I'm calling out to the only one
Who can save us from what we've done
Don't leave me hanging on

And I'm reaching out
And praying you'll come back again
It's just darkness I'm living in
'Cause you're the only place my heart has ever been"

- Josh Groban, "You're The Only Place"